Patience
November 26, 2014 "Be Patient."
God, I hate those words. As you maybe can tell from the first sentence, patience might not really be what I like to hear. But suddenly this is the only thing I'm getting to hear from everyone.
It's final year and I'm definitely totally stressed about school, and I know that sooner or later I'll have to study or do an apprenticeship so I am trying to find answers and working on things, which I should have done earlier. But seems as if working hard and trying my best, isn't getting me anywhere. I thought sooner or later everything is going to be sorted out and even though it may not be peacefully, I'd be a step closer to my aims. Guess who is still waiting? Exactly, me.
Nothing has happened so far, things are just getting messier and I am still trying to sort things out.
Exhaustingly, I am standing up everyday waiting for the day to end. Sound pretty pessimistic, but it's just that sometimes things in life take just too long, and as i said, I have no patience for anything.
I am aware that life doesn't just happen and that you cannot live without struggles, but sometime it's just as if my life won't move on. It's as if the universe is moving for everybody except for me, and that makes me mad. I am trying so hard, why won't anything happen?
After laying all night awake on my bed, I asked myself if the reason why I am not moving forward might be me. So I decided to talk to various friends of mine, which are pretty wise by the way. I discussed with them for a very long time and with one friend, it took even a whole afternoon.
It was the same response: "Be patient."
First of all, I thought it maybe could be a joke and they could have secretly planned it out since they know patience is one of my enemies. But suddenly I realized they don't know each other, and thats when I started thinking about it.
I understand life is though. For others harder than for some. We want to know what is going to happen next or what are we supposed to do in order for everything to go perfectly. But believe me you can try hard enough and nothing will change. So there is just one thing you can do; wait. Wait for your answers, for solutions and for peace. Sometimes things take their time and it has a reason. Mostly. We may not understand meanwhile why, but waiting can be always worth. I am learning not to underestimate life. I personally believe life can make you endure much but it also can bless you plenty of times.
Keep going, It'll be worth.
Keep going, It'll be worth.
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